When "HE" defeated death

It was just before dawn..... He was marching confidently to the edge of a cliff , and then he found that he cannot take the last step...!!! The last step was inevitable .
Every day of his life had led to it . He saw down the cliff and thought of height he was standing ...height of his own self.... height of his ego..
suddenly in a moment's notice , the flashback of his life flew through his eyes....his achievements , his love , his pain ...everything.....they were evaporating as they were sensed....and finally they left a feeling of pride..self-esteem..something which he was proud of ..no compromises of any kind he ever made with himself..
He created everythin of his own , of his own values , of his own terms and policies . He achieved evrything he ever wanted or wished and that was watching his foot when his self was crossing the sky , crossing evrything which caused suffering or pain.....No empty vaccum to be filled , no hidden or ridden desires .
He was complete , complete in the sense beyond the limits of substantial world...probably he was alone among mortals who was able to abandon all that was good in order to suffer the torment and uncertainty of the wild world..!!
He pursue nothing material...and pursue evrything of his own , of evrything he was born with and was eternal to his soul....Confusions , delusions , illusions neva kept him away from his soul and his ego was neva distracted by semantics . He neva felt any feeling of shame or guilt for his own soul...
He was happy...happier...happiest...and then he was naked...naked of evrything material.....evrything...!! He took a deep breath...he swallowed all the "air" from air
He was seekin freedom..'coz he was done wid evrything...evrything he eva wanted...and then a question flicked in his mind..."What is freedom..??" his own self was intelligent enough to answer this..."It's the end of struggle"............................"Is not death the same thing...."..He coud'nt see any one winning over him ...nor life , nor death.... BUT.... he knew how hard he struggle ,death will win - the hunter will kill his prey ...BUT until then he had one chance to turn the tables..If he move quickly , He may be able to kill death first. There was no other way , not if he wanted to be free....now he was clear...no demons nymore to distract his path...
and then he saw upwards.. he was smiling...and happily he took his last step.

psychotropic deception

It was when "I" discovered the fact....the air above me was still producin some senseless vibrations in me...creating a void.....a void demanding some light......and i was enjoying the darkness covering my soul....protecting frm the white bright light... protecting from undue necessities.. prtotecting from social rituals.....i was confused... confused between rational facts ....and asked for higher dimensions of curiosity...i worked...i worked to fight with contradictions..contradictions within my worthless soul.... 'coz i knew there exist no contradictions...i rewinded evrything to eliminate the unattainable... ..i was fighting with the reasons for a fake sense of purpose....and then i found that void was diminishin....and i found pleasure dying .. 'coz that was all a man could ever achieve..dats only thing one can ever attain...sustain.... OR retain.......KD...2/3/09