psychotropic deception

It was when "I" discovered the fact....the air above me was still producin some senseless vibrations in me...creating a void.....a void demanding some light......and i was enjoying the darkness covering my soul....protecting frm the white bright light... protecting from undue necessities.. prtotecting from social rituals.....i was confused... confused between rational facts ....and asked for higher dimensions of curiosity...i worked...i worked to fight with contradictions..contradictions within my worthless soul.... 'coz i knew there exist no contradictions...i rewinded evrything to eliminate the unattainable... ..i was fighting with the reasons for a fake sense of purpose....and then i found that void was diminishin....and i found pleasure dying .. 'coz that was all a man could ever achieve..dats only thing one can ever attain...sustain.... OR retain.......KD...2/3/09